Monday, June 29, 2009

mirai e desu.......

Ho, topik yang agak bermakna [yeke?]. Takdelah, biasanyakan kebanyakan post entries ku penuh dengan kengarutan / kemerepekkan [ada ke imbuhan 2 perkataan ni? Xp]. Hmm, kalo tiap kali termenung tu mesti fikirkan pasal masa depan [chey2, matang gak aku ni eh XD]. Ntohle. Tetiba je rasa risau nanti lepas graduate apa yang aku nak kerja. Itupun kalo dapat graduate on time ah. Why? Did u upset with what u take now? Hah, never! Takkan sesekali ku nyesalnya. Tapi tulah ramai orang kata bidang IT terutama multimedia ni payah nak dapat kerja. Dengan kedegilan aku yang teramat aku ignore kata2 orang tu dan yakin + ingin ubah persepsi pandagan sape2 yang kata begitu.
Tapi tu dulule masa sebelum masuk ipt. Semangat ah katakan~ Keazaman tu memang berkesan sampai sem 1 jelah. Sem 2 ni ntohle, rasa macam dah kurang keyakinan dengannya. Belajar pun dah tak sesemangat waktu sem 1 dulu. Kembali MALAS! XD

So, what I wanna be in the future soon? Animator? Programmer? Graphic Designer? Game Designer? Web Designer? Bla bla bla.....
HAH!
1 pun takde yang sesuai aku rasa even animator tu dulu cita2 aku. Bukan sebab dah ada orang telah mendahului [buat animasi Malaysia ni jadi hebat & terkenal] je, tapi ada sebab2 yang lain gak. Reason paling kuat yakni melukis. Kalo nak jadi animator ni kenalah pandai lukis [lukis orang + figure pose]. Masalahnya di sini, aku agak lemah dalam melukis-lukis ni [poyoyo~ padahal masa darjah 6, form1, form2 dulu suka n banyak je lukis]. My drawing skill was very blunt. Hontou ni blunt desu! Blunt yg teramat blunt ah. Hampir nak pupus pun ada. (TT^TT) Bila tengok kembali lukisan2 dedulu an, adeh~ buruk glerbabas. Then kalo dibandingkan dgn lukisan orang2 hebat [terutama dgn 2 orang ni] lagi bertambah buruk yang teramat le lukisan2 ku itu. (T^T) Hal yang demikian, aku dah kurang keyakinan untuk jadi animator. Begitu juga dgn Graphic Designer & Game Designer. 2-2 ni pun memerlukan banyak kerja yg berkaitan dgn melukis.
Programmer lak lagi ah. Jangan harap wei~~~ pasal belajar programming + java ni pun dah susah ni kan nak kerja sebagai Programmer. Tapi kerja ni memang best sebab kita bleh memprogramkan sesuatu.

So, kerja apakah yang sesuai dengan aku sebenarnya??? Persoalan ni takkan selesai sehinggalah dapat tau jawapannya sendiri [bila dah bekerja]. Tapi nak gak tau apakah kerja yg akan aku amik nanti bila dah graduate. Tapi ni tak bermakna aku menyesal dengan bidang aku amik ni. Takkan sesekali nyesal! Cuma tulah, tak tau apa pekerjaan aku masa depan. Bestnya bagi derang yang dah memang jamin apa pekerjaan derang pada masa hadapan. Haih~ (-,-)

Alangkah bagus kalo skil lukisan aku tak hilang, bolehlah aku teruskan cita2 nak jadi animator tu. Haih~ (-,-)

"There is no reason...Even if all is lost
Are you still going to tell me to smile?"
- No Reason by Gackt Camui

mood : concern, give up? [yeah, little]
listen most to : No Reason - Gackt


Friday, June 12, 2009

Happy Father's Day, OTOU-SAMA!! (^O^)

Taktau dah terlepas ke belum Father's Day sebab tak ingat bila harinya.. cuma ingat ianya berlaku dalam bulan Jun je.. So, sempena Hari Bapa ni, I wanna dedicate this song special to my dad.. ^^ Only this gift that I can give to you due to don't have money to buy special gift.. (TT^TT)
Tapi liriknya takde kaitan dgn mana2 dan sesape pun eh sebab Gacku-chan buat lagu ni special to his beloved dad, dan juga berdasarkan apa yang beliau nak luahkan pada ayahnya..


SANKKYU FOR EVERYTHING, ABAH~!! (^O^)


My Fathers Day - Gackt

My Father's Day

Sayonara sae umaku iezu ni tada namida koraete
ima sugu demo sukoshi kasureta koe kakete kuru sou de

Kurushimi sae misenai anata wa totemo kirei de
hohoemi dake ukabete hitori kiete itta Father's Day

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
anata no kotoba daite

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
itsuka mada deaeru hi made

mune no naka iroase wa shinai omoide wa eien de
afuredashita namida wa yagate yuki ni kawatte yuku

sarusuberi no michibiku saki ni anata ga warattete
chiri hajimeta kono kisetsu ga boku ni totte no Father's Day

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
anata no kotoba daite

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
kitto mata deaeru
Good-bye Dad

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words.
Dry your tears...You can go forth alone."

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
The many things you have left for me
Good-bye Dad

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
anata no kotoba daite

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
ima wa mae wo muite
zutto aruite yuku


My Father's Day (translation)

Unable to even say good bye properly, I just hold back the tears
As if even any minute now your voice calling out could brush against me

Not even showing your pain, you were so beautiful
The father's day you vanished alone, leaving just a smile hanging in the air

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
I embrace your words

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
Until someday when we can meet again

The memories inside my heart that will never fade away, forever
the fallen tears will soon change to snow

Ahead, where the crape-myrtle leads, you are laughing
This season, begun to fall, is my Father's Day

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
I embrace your words

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
We can surely meet again
Good-bye Dad

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words.
Dry your tears...You can go forth alone."

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
The many things you have left for me
Good-bye Dad

"You can find the Neo Universe
without tears nor any words."
I embrace your words

I'll take on the Neo Universe
without fears nor any doubts
Now I turn to face ahead
always walking


"Thank you, dad" - Gackt Camui


"My Father's Day" sung by Gackt. Okay, obviously this song is about Ogata Ken (pelakon dalam Fuurin Kazan, yang begitu rapat dgn Gacku-chan sampai dianggap Ogata Ken tu macam ayah beliau). It's also written mostly in English, which made my job a lot easier. Hearing Gackt say "Good-bye Dad" just breaks my heart though. From what I've heard, he's certainly not close to his biological father, and it's just horrible that after finally finding, when he was in his thirties, someone he could look up to in that way and feel inspired by, that that person had to pass on so soon after...

click this link to get the beautiful & original lyric of "My Father's Day" :
My Father's Day lyric_original